Published: Jul 27, 2011 11:17 PM EDT
Updated: Jul 27, 2011 10:17 PM EDT

CAPE CORAL, Fla.-  Two months ago, Tara Brissette's family saw her life come to an end too soon.

"It's hard because they both were so happy. It makes it harder to deal with that she's not here," says her mother, Julie Brissette.

The autopsy report says the 28 year-old's boyfriend, Marcus Jackson, had marijuana and pain killers in his system when he shot himself. Brissette's mother was told Tara was strangled to death. She describes the day she found her daughter's body.

"I said Im going to check on her stomach to see if she's breathing. She was cold. But she looked so beautiful, she looked like an angel," she said.

The family is broken and torn apart by the memories. The most difficult thing is now knowing why Marcus took his own life, and the woman he loved.

"I wish he would have left me a note," Julie Brissette said.

Now the family is focusing on Tara's four year old son Braxton who now lives with his biological father.

"He wanted to go to heaven to see her," said Brissette.

The family says they will make sure he grows up knowing who his mom was, and that she never wanted to leave him.

" His mom would have wanted the best for him. Make sure he had what he needed."

Leapin' Lizards in Cape Coral is holding a benefit for Braxton this Saturday. The money will go toward the 4 year-old's college fund.